Thanks, to the people who commented on my earlier post, I’m trying to stay positive and am a lot calmer after speaking to my mum and she basically “knocked some sense” into me, and pretty much echoed what Stepfordtart said, my dad had a lot of issues with his health, especially with alcohol, when my brother was born (he’s 22 now) the family doctor basically said to my dad that f he didn’t stop drinking then he’d be in serious trouble and so I’m thinking that, that played a part in his death, but I guess I’ll never know for sure.
At some point in the future I’ll write about what was mentioned earlier today with regard to my relationship with my dad. I guess it’s quite a common story when people’s parents split up and there’s a lot of animosity between the parents in the interim. I never took sides as I got older and understood what happens as relationships deteriorate. I’m not fooling myself that people are on tenterhooks waiting to read about my childhood, but it will be a cathartic experience for myself and will probably be the first time I’ve ‘spoken’ about my feelings in a public place.
We’re a close family, but we’re not ‘touchy-feely’ in the fact that we can talk about what has happened in the past, my mum is very happily re-married now and she and my step-dad have 3 more children and we’re a happy family, but only if we stay away from certain topics, which we do.
So, thank you to both Stepfordtart and Mzbee for you good thoughts and I’ll update with what the doctor says.
